Hello lovelies! My name is Michelle Ellsworth and I am a Utah photographer.
I started my career as a Utah photographer in April 2006. I thought I had mentally lost it because I had two boys under two years old. Talk about temporary insanity.
That evening I stayed up until 4:00am purchasing my first digital camera. I started my website, brainstormed the name of my business and decided it was time to begin pursuing my passion for photography.
Not even twelve hours later, my two year old fell from a second story window. He passed away five hours later. That might be hard for some of you to read.
I don’t tell you that for pity or attention. I tell you that because I know how important family portraits are.
From experience I understand how invaluable the opportunity is to capture your memories.
The thing is, you don’t know how priceless something is until the opportunity is lost. When an opportunity is lost that is when you really know how valuable that thing is. There is no price tag I would not pay to get back another day.
The opportunity is actually lost for everyone. Most people lose the opportunity moment by moment, month by month and year after year. It goes by so slowly they don’t even realize they are losing the chance until it is gone.
My clients over the years have been a massive part of my journey in healing my heart. I can’t even tell you how many times I have left sessions overflowing with joy and gratitude to do something that meant so much to me.
It was how I stayed connected to my son, knowing I was giving to others what I wished I could give to myself.
My photography career has been a direct blessing from God.
You have been a blessing to me, far more than you could ever possibly imagine.
To say I am glad you are here would be an understatement.
My sons death was tragic but it also led to some of the greatest blessings I would ever receive.
It ruined me and built me in ways I cannot explain. The experience gave me a perspective on what really matters in life I could not have received in any other way.
I wanted to give to others more than just the perfect portrait but the stories behind the smiles.
You, my clients, gave me a reason to smile again.
Quite literally I would leave my home for a photo shoot in tears of pain and longing and come home invigorated, happy and grateful to be alive.
To get personal (as if I am just now getting personal. HAHA), in those days when I’d find myself falling into my grief, I’d pull images up on my computer only to see bright shining faces smiling at me. It made me smile right back.
I couldn’t make a two year old smile if I was crying, so essentially my photo shoots would bring out the real me; goofy, happy and silly and for a moment I would escape what was missing in my life.
I met a gal once who knew my story. As tears filled her eyes she said,
“Why do bad things happen to good people?
“So that Good things can happen to the world.”
The only thing that made my pain feel better was finding a way to serve. It has been my saving grace. It has been my medication. It gave me my reason to start living again.
I looked around me and realized that every charity, every good cause almost ALWAYS had a foundation of tragedy that spurred the movement.
This my friends is where the Good Grief Project was started.
For every client who hires Ellsworth Portraits as their Utah Photographer, together we gift a family who has lost a child a Good Grief Photo Shoot.
Family portraits are one of the hardest hurdles a family faces after their child passes on.
The Good Grief Photo Shoot is a session designed around the child in heaven. You may not be able to see them in the portraits, but you can feel them.
With every Good Grief Photo Shoot, we gift a gorgeous walnut 5×7 keepsake box for the families to store their child’s earthly treasures. I keep my sons locket of curly hair in mine.
If there is one thing I learned it is this; life is too short to stop living, even when life doesn’t seem worth living for.
The answer my friends is service. Thank you for letting me serve.
My entire mission as a Utah Photographer is centered in giving you what I wished I could give to myself. I truly know the most priceless possessions you could ever invest in are your memories, love and relationships.
At Ellsworth Portraits we don’t just create portraits, we create connection and heal hearts.
Together, we create art out of your love and heal the hearts of those facing the hardest challenge of life.
I don’t know of anything more beautiful to make art out of than the love you have worked to create.
Check out my blog for more examples of my work.